Sloppy? + INTERVIEW 001

I've been so lazy with this!
I don't mean blogging - It's been like over a week for you guys but actually I've been writing in my notebook everyday!
I'm really annoyed because it seems Blogger doesn't have a "cut" feature, where I can type some stuff here, and then post a link to expand to the rest of the content - I have a few content in one post so I'd like to be able to make a few of those for you!
But I can't, I think the best you'll get it just one cut at the bottom of the page T_T
I just find making too long of posts will discourage you guys from reading!
So this first content will be finally ~ yay, a first interview!
Now, you should be able to tell I am familiar with this person but they aren't someone I see or talk to in my daily life, so don't get nosy!
I told them that this would be anonymous and I wouldn't be biased or anything with the knowledge I have for him,
and by gods did he listen - because I learned stuff about him I didn't know about!
He was kind enough to be honest during the interview and I'm very excited about it,
but this is only part one - so here it is:

INTERVIEW 001: "VJ" - DOB:4.17.1991 SADIST PT.1

Fetishes: Sadomasochism, rape, murder.

OCTOBER 13, 2009

ERO: What is your "biggest fetish"?

VJ: Hurting women. Lately I've been infatuated with the thought of rape and murder to the point of not being able to walk down the street and seeing someone - and then thinking of what that person would or how they would 'feel' if I did do that to them.

ERO: Rape and murder is wrong universally. So why do you like it?

VJ: I'd love to see and feel the emotions of the victim. I want to get into their heads and see what they're thinking and feeling.

ERO: But what about murdering them? They won't feel much then.

VJ: The act of torturing them before they die is the main point that really interest me. Murder is just a byproduct.

ERO:And what emotions are you looking for then? Would they have a better chance of living by obeying you or fighting for their lives?

VJ: It's more fun if they fight back. I'm looking for real fear and hopelessness in their faces. Knowing that I hold their life in my hands. Their better chance would probably be to fight back...

ERO: Why don't you rape me? (laugh)

VJ: ...Cause you know it would be coming. You wouldn't fight me until I stop, you're really accepting.

ERO: That's not me! It's very hard to not fight back when my body really wants me to. I don't fight back because I feel ashamed -- like I like getting raped so I didn't want you to think I was weird -- so I just pretended in my head.

VJ: ...Is this still part of the interview? (laugh)

ERO: Um, yes! (Note: I left this because I Felt even my feelings were relevant to the topic :P )

VJ: Its not exactly the same for me with you. You're accepting - I want a real fight. A real struggle.

ERO: I've tried to fight before, but the guy always gets turned off thinking I really don't want it (When I do)What to do...Oh, I'd love to really struggle with you next time so long as you promise not to stop trying no matter how hard I end up crying!

VJ: I won't stop once I'm in my "sadistic mindset" . With me it intensifies it, I love a good struggle.

ERO: I tried to struggle last time but you let go of me!

VJ: That was a very late night thing. That was child's play compared to what I wanted to do. Get you when you're not expecting. Have you not know it's me. I want to feel true fear from you. I want you to struggle to get away from me as I penetrate you and get you off. To finish it, I would want you to fear for your life as if it would end at any moment.

ERO: I understand...th..that's exactly what I what I think about, so next time I won't hold back or hide it...

VJ: Good.

ERO: So what age did you have these thoughts?

VJ: I've always been intrigued with the thoughts of death. I was always wondering why I never thought rape was that "bad of a thing" like "normal" society does. But I was really unlocked at the age of 15 when I was introduced to the world of BDSM/sadomasochism.

ERO: And how did that happen? (laugh) You didn't find it strange?

VJ: A close friend of mine...his significant other introduced me fully into it. (Wonder who she was...>_>; JKJK) I always knew about it but never was guided formally to it. Surprisingly enough, I found it very comfortable. Like I finally had answer to why I felt the way I did.

ERO: Why, that is lucky you were introduced :P! Welcome Aboard! Most people would not be interested. And, have you ever gotten close to the feeling of your fetish?

VJ: On occasion I have. But choking girls and cutting them only gets you so far. I hope to one day fully fulfill my fantasy. I can't wait.

ERO: Fulfill? So one day you plan to really rape or murder someone? (laugh)

VJ: Possibly. If my impulses continue like they have been. I might lose control one day and just go for it. I wouldn't have much to lose anyway.

END OF PT.1